and the question came~

over the year, i sort of anticipated its arrival, so by right, in terms of mental preparation, im totally capable of handling it, answering it.

but when the question is finally posed to me, it was totally a heart-over-mind moment..

"so if today i tell you that i've prepared everything and will go over to work for 3years, you're fine w it?"

i can see his passion and interest to be working on things that he enjoy, looking at how he thinks thoughtfully about the entire startups scene~ and truthfully, he'll be much more appreciated over at the SV area.. i'd want the best of him, and would definitely be in support of pushing him towards greater opportunities! and thats why i totally pushed for him to go on the NOC~

the past year wasnt all that easy, experienced alot of difficult moments that i felt have made us stronger. maybe its just me. but however much i feel that i'm fine w him going there for work purposes, at that moment, my heart discarded all rationality and wrenched for a few moments.. if this was a real question: 3years, really..? can i..? or maybe i wouldnt, and work/strive hard to find my own opportunities there like him too.

tried hard to stop my bad habit today, but i failed, kinda badly. maybe just for another once, my heart felt strongly abt missing him~

probably, i just need to be stronger myself.. and a stronger heart maybe, to adapt to more challenges emotionally.. 파이팅~