fuck all these.
maybe she's right.
im sick. i want to be loved for who i am.
so seeking all the ways to justify why i want to understand others.
because understanding others gives me more concrete guidelines to work towards appealing them.

why must i live my life around others?
i should live for myself.

but then again, it's others who are in control of the elements that are the deciding factors of whether i can do certain things.

fml. just fml.
too sick and tired of all these. from this moment, im going to live my life my way. MY way.