so damn freaking stressed, but just am in a state of not wishing to do anything..
i've never felt so desperate before, about saving myself from all this shit..
it's gonna be killer weeks up next.. definitely gonna be worse that i've expected, because i've not done all the preparation work to avoid it..
have no idea what i got myself into..
never thought it was so bad..

just feel like shouting it all out!!!
clearing it from my chest, all the irritating problems that are bugging me..
but singapore is just too judgy.. i need a place where nobody will care about me even if i shout and scream or even cry out..
but even the rollercoasters at USS is under construction..

i guess, i'll just have to bear with it..
maybe i should just compromise, and scream into my pillow tonight..

have been really tired recently..
sleeping, and napping..
or am i just tired of this kind of lifestyle?
disliking all these..

i can now safely say that. im a pessimist.
just, a pessimist. sorry to only acknowledge now.
even i myself cant buy myself into my own facade of positivity..

felicia