ohwell lets see!

it's the 12th already, just a flip away from 21st.
but, i dont feel that sort of anxiety in the luggage being a unit away, the packing list being a list away, the preparation being at the back of my mind and always stuck there, and the learning of korean being stuck at level 2 since semesters away LOL
thats it, i'm getting away from this computer until my partner stops being in the mode of MIA, and when she replies me to help me in getting some work done.

sometimes, i'm just afraid that i'm a little irritating.
because i really have no idea what's going on in their minds.
because i dont know their real thoughts and true intentions.
and i dont know if, the replies are intendedly so positively sent as how i read them to be.
or do they mean another way?

i hate text messages because, the receiver's way of perceiving it may distort how you want to communicate them to be.

and the fact that one doesnt reply to your message is simply !!! because, you dont know if
1) she really did not notice her phone as she was busy
2) she does not know how to reply you
3) she doesnt feel bothered to reply you as she's simply annoyed with the topic, or even you.

i just hope that. people could be more straight-forward to me, rather than beating round the bush.
the shock and angst in me would only last temporarily, but it can impact alot in how i reflect thereafter and hence change the way in our interactions so that it's better for both of us eventually.
thats it, i shall be positive and take everything as how i think it could be :)

time to get SOME things done!
cant believe that korea is just 1week away!

*you see, you'll never know whether the sentence is typed with a heart filled with excitement, or simply filled with anxiety from the lack of preparation.

maybe emoticons make better sense than punctuation marks~
although some may just be used as a norm so as to make the whole thing more light-hearted and not place the strain on the conversation, or place any stress on anybody.

you'll never know.

:)

felicia