03:35

mixed feelings about looking at all the places of interest to me!
because i feel so excited to go on the trip but yet feel abit irritated that im so unprepared for it!
for now, i shall just settle ALL the administrative matters, before coming up w my packing list by this tuesday! and do up some places that i wanna visit afterwards :)
in the meanwhile, i shall just hope for SGD to get stronger :) and hope that i get stronger myself as well :)

i'm so glad to have settled my accommodation! i've saved all the trouble of transferring the deposit over to them and saved all the charges that would be incurred from the transaction! the girl was so nice to help us reserve the rooms without additional charges <3 :="" and="" at="" converse="" could="" embarrassing="" english="" for="" haha..="" in="" korean="" looking="" lucky="" me="" my="" oops="" p="" she="" that="" then="" to="" well="" yayy="">
many many things to do on my list, i still have my closet to clear ohno!
perhaps the first thing to do is to switch my body clock back lol..
although it's kinda nice to be working in the kitchen at such wee hours (the last time i stayed up till so late is like a-levels period?)
these few nights have been windy and i kinda like it being quiet and peaceful at night :) and it's always cooling in the morning, and i'm even loving that i've ended my internship and dont have to wake up early hee!
but it's kinda sad that i'm always missing my alternate days morning run :/

it's okayy i prioritise sleep more :)

i'm finally selling my textbooks (yes!) even though i'm abit reluctant  to because i like to read them occasionally.. they're pretty good reads actually, and i kinda miss the hardworking notes and post-its on them haha..
forget it! they're a burden to my family every week on mop-floor tuesdays..
and, i really doubt that i would touch them in future future, except to take them out for occasional reads like what i do with them now LOL
please dont ask me the question of what i wanna do in future.. because i still have not found the answer to that.. i know it's kinda urgent to address that but.. just give me a bit more time..

18:10

and so just when i was about to finish up my post last night, the battery died woohoo~
because it told me that it's time to sleep at 4am :)
but a shock came to me in the morning when my sister did not bring my textbooks with her this morning..
she was supposed to meet the buyer in place of me, since the person would be at botanic gardens mrt, which is near her school..
SIGH what can i ever say about this sister of mine.. blur. and just blur.

went down to visit my ahgong at cgh this afternoon. he's got some gout attack, and yup, i had to google that out LOL so one of the symptoms was like acute arthritis. his feet was so swollen that he couldnt move it much as it hurt a lot. when i looked at his feet, i was saddened.
it was so skinny, and i could really see the muscles and bone through the seemingly translucent skin on his legs.
my grandfather loved to walk alot, and always catching up with his random friends everywhere. his legs are of unequal length, and he always walks as though he was limping, but this did not detered him, seeing him travelling from pasir ris to bedok and then fro frequently haha.
but it hurts me to see that he's just stuck on the bed, eating kinda bland food..
but my ahgong looks so cute without his dentures hahahahaha i was telling him about it, and he just laughs cooly over it as usual.

met jiasheng at cgh! he was having his attachment there :)
he gave me a total different feeling since the last time i met him. i guess i could say that, he's really much more mature and grownup!
and he gives me a feeling that he's loving his job :) whether or not he does, it's heartwarming i thought, whenever i see people being so passionate about their work, how motivated they are to be always at their workplace, and haha no matter how much they whine, they like and want to stay there..
something i really experienced during my internship. not at my workplace, but at the different schools that i visited, and the coordinators whom i met.

i hope i find a job that i really love soon! :)
and i can proudly say to others, what i want to be in the future haha

felicia