perhaps its all cuz of myself.

reasoned out why i only manage to post more unhappy events.. it's pretty much cuz when i'm feeling down, i tend to stay alone, sometimes with my computer. when i'm much happier, i tend not to care about the computer and enjoy the fun with people..

ohwell.

feeling frustrated.
with myself, with her, with everything..

she could be really straightforward to me, i dont mind.
i'd rather that she's straightforward with what she prefer, what she thinks, what she feels..
because if i am really reluctant or what, i am ready to tell her as well. though not as readily as her.
because it becomes a bit ... when i go check out some stuff, thinking that since you mentioned it, you should be pretty alright with the idea..
but when in the end it turns out to be all a misinterpretation on my side, and that you're not very keen with things, it all seems so onesided on my side.
felt quite stressful this way, because idk whether or not you're fr the idea.

just.. say it out..

felicia