i've heeded advice to ignore.
but she just came right in front of me to say it all again.
and not giving me the chance to clarify.

her interaction with me was already filled with bias. this is just confirmation bias on her side.
she cant see any better side of me, i swear.
it always comes as a surprise to her for my cheerful mood, that to tell the truth, it never sustained with her around.

maybe on my side, i'm picking faults in her as well.
i dont deny.

seriously hating it.
i've already tried my very best, but i just cant do it anymore.
now, i'm even starting to hate myself.
maybe its just that i'm such a hateful person.

and interestingly, to suddenly think of it, the first thing i kept myself occupied with was the offcampus accommodation info.
lol, escapism.

cant stop tears from flowing. why.